Is my mind going???

I have a lot on my mind these days. I thought a nice walk in the park would help. Which it did. It was so peaceful sitting on the bench looking at the water. I even managed to dooze off for about 20 minutes. I just sat there looking at Taylor climb this very strange looking tree. It had the perfect spot to just sit and relax and that is just what she did. I am going to miss my Taylor so much. She is going to visit Chris for the rest of June, but will be back the first of July. This is on my mind.

I need to make some personal changes in my life. At times I become very needy and don't know why. I need to learn to back off and give people their space instead of being like a little dog always nipping at the heels. I do care a lot and sometimes it takes on its own form and it is overkill. Sometimes being too nice is too much. I can't change who I am and can't say I want to. But I can modify it. will work on that next.

Next thing I need to change is the job situation. I need to make more money. I love the school but it has put a financial burden on me and my family and I have to make a change. I loving being able to spoil my loved ones.

My Nana has been sick and is definatley losing her mind. I wish I had more time to visit her. But it does hurt to see her that way. Afer Shyanne died I think I put up a mental block of some kind. The other day my Nana said she saw Shyanne. After hearing that a wave of sadness took over. I don't tell people but I miss her. Even as I write this I am crying. She was so smart and funny. After finally saying it I even feel better now.